Doing so much better

What an amazing difference a good conversation with the man I love can do!?!?!?!

J and I laid in bed and talked for about three hours on Friday night. I came to a few conclusions.

1. I think I'm more stressed than I admit about finances. This class that we're taking is forcing me to face those issues head on and it's not something I'm good at handling.

2. My weight loss is slowing. I don't have the time to run, so it's not helping my weight loss and my mental state is suffering too because I'm not running.

3. I get extraordinarily frustrated with judgmental people. I'm tired of people (including my mother) making comments about J and whether he's a good husband or not... he's a wonderful man who loves me very much and adores these girls. Just because he's reserved in his outward expressions of his faith and doesn't bare his soul to everyone does not make him a bad guy.

4. I NEED SLEEP!!!

In the end, I'm doing much better. I feel like the clouds have parted and things aren't so foggy anymore, if that makes any sense.

We've turned a corner with Kara Mae. She's finally sleeping a bit more and it's better for all of us. I've discovered I'm not giving enough attention to her naps. Now that we're working on that, things are so much better. We've had a bunch of good nights in a row and our new definition of a good night is bed at 7:00, wake at 2:30 am to feed, sleep until 8:00 am. MUCH better!

Our schedule is crazy now though. Here's a typical day right now.

8:00 am - Kara up
9:30 am - Jana up
10:00 am - Kara nap
12:00 pm - Jana lunch
12:30 pm - Kara up
1:00 pm - Jana nap
3:30 - Kara nap
4:00 - (If I'm lucky and the construction isn't directly behind our house) Jana up
4:30 - J home
5:30 - Kara up
6:00 - Dinner
7:00 - Kara to bed
8:00 - Jana to bed

Needless to say, I don't get out much these days!

The bummer is not being able to run, but getting Kara that morning nap is turning out to be exceptionally important.

I need to tend to the babes - one's next to me yelling and the other is yelling from her crib.