A bit overwhelmed

First, and least important, I have a sinus infection.

Next, J is having some health issues. He's wearing a heart monitor 24-7 because he's having some issues. His heart races, but also seems to skip a beat. When he has one of his episodes and I hear his heart rate and it scares the shit out of me. He's now sending in his 8th episode right now and it's starting to sink in. I can't even go down that road of thought - I'll fall apart.

And, this morning we got a call from J's family - apparently my sis in law M's fiance S (further known as dumbass) got himself arrested. We know very little except that he's charged with two counts of felony theft of a fire arm. Stupid Fuck! (Sorry for the language, as I said, my cup is overflowing). She's living in BFE, not able to pay her bills because there are no decent jobs there, so she can be with him while he finishes school. She's given up so much to be with him and he goes and decides to be a dumbass! I'm just heartbroken for her and I'd love to beat some sense into him, but I think I'll have to get in line behind J and his bros and there may not be anything left after they get a hold of him (and I am meaning metaphorically - they would never touch him, but would love to give them a piece of their minds). As if that wasn't bad enough, my sis in law and my in laws were up visiting my bro in law D and his girlfriend because her parents were in town. So my inlaws were meeting her parents for the first time when they had to make a quick exit to try to go bail dumbass out of jail, six hours away from here. My sis in law is supposed to be here at a training for work, not back there dealing with dumbass and his stupidity.

Lastly, my sis had a 10 hour layover here in town, so we got to hang out for the day. It was so good to see her and for her to spend time with my girls. We spent most of our time talking about how bad things are with her husband and how she's ready to get a divorce. It's so heartbreaking to know how much he's changed and how he's such a different person now. It's so sad that she's now facing the end of her marriage and the end the dreams she had - I know having kids was her biggest dream and now she's 34, and starting all over.

I'm just so tired. I feel like crap. I am just so sad. I'm so sad that people I care about hurt this much. I'm scared to death about J. There's just so much right now, that I'm having trouble even processing it all.