I should be...
I should be working on school work while Jana's asleep because I can't seem to get my feet under me at school, but I can't.
I just read Kristi Ann's blog and am reminded how petty my angst has been.
I know I'm frustrated and unhappy at my job. I'm sad and extremely ego-bruised because I didn't get the job I applied for, but let's stop and think about the blessed life I live. I'm stressed about money now that instead of making 40k this year I'm making 18k. I'm scared I'm never going to get another teaching job when I want to go back to work. I feel sick to my stomach and teary because I'm feeling so unsettled.
And then I stop and think about it.
And I want to kick myself.
Five years ago, people's lives were shattered. Fathers, mothers, grandparents, children, friends were lost. Not lost, stolen.
How do I keep a better perspective? How do I not get wrapped up in my own pity party? Why do I let things get to me so much?
I better go plan so at least my lessons will be ready for tomorrow.
posted by Lindsay @ 6:11 PM
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2 Comments:
We all lose that better perspective. I am not sure why or how if happens, but we are all wrapped up in our own lives until something so big happens that we can't be any longer.
I hope you were able to get your lessons finished and enjoy some time with Jana.
Lindsay-
I understand completely!
It is so easy to forget how many blessings we really have. I do it ALL the time!! I try, at night, to list all my blessings...and thank God for them.
Life is hard enough.
And being a mom is the HARDEST job in the world......you thought you had worries before....:)
I hope that you feel better and get things in the order that you want them! I believe all things happen for a reason....and you are in for something GREAT!
*hugs*
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