1/20/09

Breakfast: 3/4 of a 1/2 cup serving of oatmeal (2), 1/2 a non fat s/f latte w/ 12 ozs milk (2) (20 points left)
Lunch: 1 string cheese (2), rice cakes (3), coke zero (5 points, 15 left)


So, I had my yearly female dr's appt today. I almost threw up when I saw the weight - more than I started at. So, I'm hoping that scale is different than the one I weigh on. As I talked with the NP, I quickly came to realize that I'm not crazy in thinking that I can't handle everything that's going on. She suggested that we go see a financial planner to make sure that we're getting the most bang for our buck in our efforts to be debt free because me working 6 part time jobs is ridiculous. She also greatly encouraged me to go back on anti-depressents. This was not the news I wanted. I was hoping she'd say that this is a normal reaction to the stress of life and that I should exercise more, etc. Knowing that my bout of depression was triggered by an extremely stressful situation, and I'm so incredibly stressed out now, it was very obvious that it's time. This makes me sad, but I'm hoping I can feel like myself soon. She also wants me to get tests done because she's worried about hormone levels, etc because of bad my periods are. She couldn't believe that I was still having periods every month that cause me to go through a tampon an hour for over a day.

Progress, I guess.