I now understand road rage :)

We've been in California for 4 days and to quote Jeremy, "I now know why Californians started shooting each other in rush hour traffic." It is insane here. It took us 3 1/2 hours to make a 2 hour trip from Cupertino to Sacramento.

We've had a great time here, though. After the first night of emotions, I'm doing much better. Alex is a wonderful little boy and Mat and Adrienne have raised him so well. I hope someday we have a little boy like him.

We visited my 80-year-old Grandma while we were here. She's such a kick and we are so much a like. I think it is cyclical in our family. Her mom was strict, she's a loose cannon, my mom is strict, I'm definitely like my grandmother. I wish she lived closer, but I understand why she doesn't want to leave. This area is all she's ever known. We took her out to lunch and she talked about how she started going to the restaurant we were at in the 60s and she felt as though her friends were still sitting all around her. I know I'll regret not knowing her as well as I want too, but I'm so glad we drove down to see her this week.

We went to Alex's Gymboree tonight. He's such a crack-up. He is such a little boy. Not just tonight, but through the last 4 days, I have been so happy and content just watching him, listening to him laugh, and basking in the uninhibited love he gives out. He's become a little attached to me, which of course I love :).

We are heading back to home tomorrow. We're stopping to have lunch with Jeremy's grandparents on the way back home. It'll be nice to sleep in our bed for a couple of nights. We're heading for my parents for Easter (secretly only to see my nephew). We're excited to get Maiya out of "lock up". She loves her kennel and it's a great place, but we still feel horribly guilty.

Before I head to bed, I just want to say thank you to the girls who have become so dear to me in the last 10 months. I can't believe that I've never met any of you, but feel like I can share these things with you. I usually try to put on a happy face and am usually too embarrassed to show my insecurities, but without any history that necessitates many friendships, you all have been here for me. Your kinds words, cyber hugs, and needed laughs have helped me through the most difficult year of my life. Thank you!